Epiphany!!!

Earlier this evening I was going through some papers for my college applications, and I was feeling quite frazzled. Quite honestly, I was in a horrible state of mind to be going through those particular papers. Although I have finished the NOC & St. Greg's applications (well, actually I'll probably add an essay to that one), I was looking through the remainder of my USAO application.

I started looking at the extent of the scholarship application and all of the ridiculous questions it was asking, and all of the "stuff" that they wanted to know, and, honestly, I didn't want to fill it out. It wasn't because I was trying to procrastinate, or because I wasn't willing to think, or just being lazy in general. I felt this sudden nagging feeling inside of me telling me that I shouldn't fill out that application. Although I have seen a lot of good things about USAO and Chickasha in general, it's just on paper, and people can make anything look good on paper if they are trying to sell something. I don't really know anyone who went there or currently goes there, and I have never been to Chickasha in my life. I began to feel very ill at ease about even filling out the remainder of the application. As Debra would say, it was a "nudge", telling me that I really shouldn't go there.

Almost as soon as I came to this realization, I also happened to recall some advice from my dad, two of my aunts, various teachers, and a few friends of mine. I also remembered a thought that I had had back in October. They all added up: I should really consider UCO. And there it was...my epiphany! When I had considered it back in October, everything seemed like a really good idea, and I felt very content with the idea. I happened to mention it to my parents and sisters. They all seemed pretty receptive to my idea, particularly my dad. He had a former co-worker who has a daughter who is going there, and he had nothing but good things to say about it. I have heard lots of people say positive things about UCO, and I think that it is worth a shot. I honestly feel really good about UCO, and I believe that I will be arranging a college day there in the near future.

For the first time in a long time, I feel like I have regained my peace of mind about my college situation, and I am feeling much, much better. In the next week, I will complete the online application, and go from there! Here's hoping that everything will work out well!!!